A new post! Name withheld.

I am now 19 years old, a few short months from hitting 20.

I feel older than i should, im certain of it. Their are points when i feel as if i've lived 3 different lives, sometimes more. My early memories have faded, and my mid-old chldhood memories are starting to run together. I can remember the name, and the fact that i played hee man dolls with my first best friend ever, Jeremy, in hawaii... But that is all...

I can remember throwing the action figures into a pool from a balcony.. That is my only memory of him.. Given, i was like 3 or 4 when we left Hawaii. Still, it saddens me to not remember someone i use to be so close to, or to even know what or where he is today. We were both army brats back then, so hell, he could be in california for all i know. Really, i have no clue.

I remember few things from about kindergarten-5th grade. I don't know why. I can remember Kyle, another best friend for a while, and his brother Mikey, A deeply troubled child who was extremely manic and mean... Christ was he mean....

Then their is Michal, willy, josh, joe, and others. I was friends with them from about 6th grade to 10th grade. They were the friends i had the longest, and the only ones i still remember the faces for. I still hang out with them, over the summer and such. Hell, Michael borrowed 2 books over the summer i need to get back over christmas break... It's funny though how our lives have drifted apart, even after i moved away.

We hung out almost every night over the summer, sitting in the parking lot of cashland, catching up with each other and other ppl we hadnt seen in years. I didnt know it, but now after graduation, the guys dont even hang out much together when im not their.. I changed that though... it was awesome, while it lasted...


Now i hang out with Brian, cory, and the dnd dudes. Friends.. Man... Life is weird...

I didnt actually make friends between my 10th and 12th grade school years.. I was in a depressive bout of social separation.. I forced myself to be a social outcast cuz i was tired of my parents shit.. But thats another rant...

Ill eventually make a post that makes some sense.. You'll see....

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