Tuesday, August 30, 2005

DnD Character History


Sormir Thoinan Barsuphes


His mother was no virgin, his father no saint. Rather, this young fool was sired by a well-to-do whore, and a bottom feeding thief... Or at least, that's the best we can hope for.


This thief, Sarmor Barsuphes, was particularly fond of a specific whore, Thelia Thoinan, and whenever he managed to cut a fat purse from an even fatter aristocrat, or separate any unfortunate fool from their money, straight into Thelia's arms he would go. And because this whore was fond of this thief, it was only natural that she would claim him as the father when her water broke upon the tavern floor one night. And upon that night, cold and dark, was borne into the world, a screaming fetus of no great measure.


Years pass for the youth, and before long in the years of elves and dwarves, he is a young man. 15 is the age in which he meets perhaps the most significant person in his life. While Sormir had grown up hearing the tales of adventurers, warriors, and the like; he had seen few wizards and heard even fewer of their dark tales.


However, one Wizard who frequented the bar as long as Sormir could remember and longer before that apparently, one day took an interest in the boy. After the Old man called him over one day for a refill on his beverage, he quickly tells the boy to stay. After mumbling a few words, he reaches out his hand, and places his into the boys. As soon as their skin touches, a bouquet of flowers appears in the childs hands. "Quickly Son." The wizard urges. "Take these to your mother, the spell will end all too soon..."


The boy did as he was told, though it troubled him slightly. His father wouldn't be happy if he found out obviously, but the boy was fascinated with the power he had seen, so he didn't tell. A glazed look had come over his mothers eyes when she had recieved the flowers. They had faded moments later, and then disappeared altogether. "Thank the good man for his consideration, Sormir." Was all the retired-whore had said, and had never spoke of it again. Neither did the wizard ever speak of it, or perform another such trick.


When he was 16, the Wizard had approached Sarmor and Thelia at their house, hours after the tavern was closed, and Sormir was to have been asleep. However, he had laid in his bed in the next room, and heard every word that passed between them.


The wizard had spoken first, declaring his intent to apprentice the boy, and willing to pay handsomely the couple in exchange. The wizard said that he felt the stirrings of magic within the boy, and that his potential must be tapped and extorted.


At first, his mother had been vehemently opposed to the idea, and his father had all but tried to kick the wizard out. But as they argued, for what seemed like hours, eventually his mother accepted the idea... For what reason, who knows. And as the whore and the wizard tried to persuade the father, eventually his love of money caused him to agree.


For some reason, Sormir had not spoken a word during the entire exchange.. Nor was he displeased with the outcome. At least he would see something other than the small village he had grown up in. See some wondrous places perhaps.


He was wrong... For the next 4 years of his life, Sormir was basically locked in a spacious room, supplied with an endless source of books to read, and many many lectures on magic, its principles, concepts, and origins. The wizard, on occasion, was not above beating the living hell out of Sormir when he refused to read, or study, when he performed a spell wrong, or accidently blew up something.


After a specifically bad beating one night, which he recieved for basically destroying the Wizards bed room, Sormir gets pissed and after stopping by the library for a few quick check outs, he stuffs a bag full of biscuits and eggs, and leaves.


For months he wanders around, eventually finding a job as an illusionist in a wandering minstral show, and that is where we meet our friend, now 22 years old.

Monday, August 29, 2005

No Delusions

I am not a great man, nor do i have any Delusions of Grandeur. As a matter of fact i may somewhat underestimate myself. Don't get me wrong, I have self respect, as much as i can. I've gotten where i am these days on my own merits, and i realize that. My parents weren't rich, and would have not been able to afford college for me in any shape or way. I got where i am through a reasonable work effort, and a shitload of financial aid, which i earned myself.

Why then do become depressed sometimes, thinking of myself as worthless. Why don't i give myself the chance to do things that should be, and probably are within my reach. Why do i go around with my head held down, attempting to pass under the radar, go unnoticed so as to avoid mocking and disregard.

Personally, i think i fear people. I would like to think of people as good and humane, but i have this deep-seated fear that no matter what i do, i wont be taken seriously, i wont earn the respect i should have, or obtain that which i want.

I want to go through this world as just any "normal" human being. I want to live my life, die, and in a few years be totally forgotten except for a last few vestiges of friends and family i have left. I don't necessarily want to be remembered for anything, do anything stupendous or ground breaking...

Hell, i don't want a hottie woman for a wife or anything like that.. I want a girl who'll have me.. Someone who would question me, but not disregard me.. Some one who could believe in me, but not accept everything about me...

I just want to be me, be allowed to think and do what i want. I don't want to have to constantly prove myself... I... just.... want to be accepted i guess is what im saying......

Love me people.. Just love me.. hehe

-Jeebus. Out.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

DnD Character


Props to the Rancor, i stole the same website to make my character appearance. I doubt this will be my characters final appearance, i simply went for the cool factor in this one... WOOT..

Character History Coming Soon To A Blog Near You!

Free-Writing 102

Note:- This will be completely random..... I had no ideas coming into this session.

A man of No Great Circumstance, a child of philosophy and intellect, once lived and died within this world. For 70 years he worked and toiled. He broke his back so he could fuel his mind. Every day he felt older, and every morning he died a little more. His only respite were the evenings in which he could sit at his small desk, with his half burned candle and read his books and write his papers.

For 70 years this man read the greats: Aristotle, Socrates, Plato, Euripidees, Homer, on and on. He read their work til he could recite them. He wrote his own til his attic was full, and his hands were raw. But still, his body ached, and even more his mind rebelled. Thoughts they he considered tremendous in implication, and discoveries who's originality rivaled Da Vinci's.

For years he wrote and read, trying to discover some truth to life; but however long he studied, twas never enough. And all the questions he answered, he reasoned away, only spawned more questions and weighed even more heavily upon his mind.

He eventually married, and even fathered children of his own. But his mind was his world, and the Philosophers of the past were his only human companions.

50 years from now, no one outside his family will remember this soul. 100 years after that, not even his descendents will remember his name or cause. And 10,000 years from now, not even his biological make up will be a splotch within the human race.

So why did this man live, and what did he accomplish? Perhaps none but himself will ever know, perhaps not even he did.


Ps... Well.... *shrug*... I apologize for that.

Free-Writing 101



This is probably the greatest picture I've ever seen on the old Internet......

Gotta love it when two lizards can make it in this crazy old world, or at least spend a night or two, clutched in each other's arms in a Terarium....

If these two love, err, lizards can make it.. That gives hope that everyone can find someone....

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Greatest Song I've Heard.

I Will Follow You Into the Dark
------Death Cab For Cutie

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Then I'll follow you into the dark

Friday, August 26, 2005

August 26, 2005

Well. Another week come and gone. The world is no better, my life is no worse. I think im gonna like the apartment life. My roomies are pimp fella's so i see no problems, yet any way... hehe.

Well... Whatever..... Maybe this'll get more interesting in the future.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

University Life

Well, i couldn't cancel my Meal plan, so im stuck spending $1,000 a semester, when i don't use but maybe half my meal plans a week. Pisses me off. Anyway....... BLOG!!!!!

August 25, 2005

Let's see what happens, eh?